Anybody out there?? Can you hear me?? I am so so sorry I have been missing from the Ninety-Two Pearl. I have taken a really long hiatus from the blog this time. The second half of 2o16 was such a roller coaster ride. There were a few ups and quite a few downs but that is the past and we are moving full force into 2017 with some awesome news. [WARNING: this is a fairly long post but I think its a good idea you guys get an idea of who I truly am!]
Life is About Perspective
I’m sure everyone has reminded you to make a negative into a positive and blah blah blah blah blah. As I got older I started to realize that all those people that threw advice down my throat only for it to be ignored, were completely right. I started to become a really negative person by the end of last year and I absolutely hated who I was becoming. All the positive advice eventually started to echo in my mind and I started to gain a lot of perspective.
Growing up, I have always been really creative. From jewelry making to cake decorating, I have tried it all, literally. I wanted so badly to to grow up and be able to use my creativity and imagination as a foundation for a lifelong career. But as I got older, my big dream of becoming an interior designer or event designer slowly started to melt away in the realities that come with growing up. How was I ever going to be successful? What if I don’t get a job after college? Am I going to make my parents proud? How am I going to pay all these bills my parents are reminding me about? It was constant questioning that was going on in my mind all the time. While I was trying to figure all that out during high school, I started working at a store called Justice (yes, like Limited Too).
I started to realize as I worked at Justice, that I really liked helping customers. More then just helping, I really enjoyed growing relationships with some of the regular customers. But sometimes when you find good, it can be accompanied by a negative. I started to lose a lot of patience in my job. I was dealing with customers who were getting upset about really minor things, like not having an item in stock or a coupon not being a redeemable. I couldn’t stand the thought that these customers were going out of there way to ruin my day because they didn’t get there way due to a policy I had zero control over. I found myself wondering why I had to constantly deal with these shallow issues. I really wasn’t feeling fulfilled and I knew I could help out in a much bigger and lasting way. That is when I started to look into Radiation Oncology.
For almost 3 years now, I have worked as a radiation therapist and have met an incredible group of people. I know what you are thinking, how can you do something so depressing? The truth is, I wanted to help and feel like I was making a difference. As I continued to grow in my career, I realized that my patients were so much more then just anybody fighting a life-threatening disease. My patients were mothers, fathers, grandparents, sons, daughters and they all had one thing in common, they wanted to get better and live. Live a life filled with there passions, excitement and happiness. As I tried to help them get better, they were teaching me a lot about myself, a lot of which I had not known about myself before.
See, there is a thing about people who are being threatened with there life. They are beyond thankful for TODAY, because today they woke up. The large age range and randomness of patients that I have treated has taught me that life can be cut short at any moment. It is such a scary concept to think about, and it is so easy to focus on, but it is beyond important that the time you have right now is being preoccupied with nothing but happiness. As I continued to work, I kept thinking about a lot of things patients would tell me. I would hear so many patients tell me how they wish they had done this or tried that. A lot of them would try to get a lot of traveling in between treatments. On top of going through radiation, chemo, and scans, the majority of my patients kept there jobs because they needed a sense of normalcy. And that was when it all clicked for me.
As much as I LOVE working with patients, creating was constantly on my mind. I started to realize that no body is guaranteed tomorrow, and if I have a dream I need to start pursuing it today. I decided it was my time to step up and figure out what I truly wanted in my life. In the past 5 years, a lot of my creating circled around parties and showers that I would throw. I loved being the one who had to make things pretty! So I went with it and dove right in. I started my own event and floral design business! As my business continues to grow, the more I am reminded that this is what I was meant to do! It was not easy and it won’t be easy for a long time (if ever) but I am really happy that I get to do two of my favorite things. So with that being said, I hope that all of you will check out our new site and like us on Instagram and Facebook!!!
Lastly, I need to especially give an extra big thank you to my boyfriend Connor, sister Nelia, cousin Ana, my best friend Kory, parents and everyone who has helped me get this started. Words could not even describe my gratitude. I could not thank you guys enough, for not only accepting and supporting my dream, but also for listening to my doubts, complaints and insecurities!
To my readers, thanks for making it through this extra long post!